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Wednesday, 23 August 2023

Day 241 – Not really waiting for xmas

 

Cover of The Parables of the Cold Island Parts one and two by Nick White. A crown buried in snow.

I'm drinking coffee from a Christmas themed mug. It reads: ‘Festive AF’ and has a little picture of an xmas tree. I have avoided these particular mugs up until now. And I'm aware that my view of Christmas may have deeply changed.

I don't want Christmas to be cancelled in my house just because my brother died on the 25th December. Most years I was very conscious of those who had lost loved ones around that time and would say a couple of prayers for them. But I fully get it now. It’s going to be a struggle. For me, it is all wrapped up with my feelings towards God for allowing my brother to die on the same day we are supposed to be celebrating life and birth.

I don't even feel I have the luxury to deal with it in any meaningful way at the moment. I just know that I don't want to cancel it here.

But I don't think that Christmas is ever going to be the same again.

“I believe there is a reason that Adam died on Christmas day,” the celebrant had said at my brother’s funeral.

Well, what is it then? Just an irony that a day which should be filled with such joy, which is supposed to be about joy and birth has now become about death to me? And here is a birthday present for Christ. Don’t bother bringing any cakes to the office, God.

A few years ago, I had written a parable – saying it was the most important parable I’ve ever written (and it is an important parable). It’s called ‘The Parable of the Cold Island’. I needed a metaphor to use for what I was trying to say but I leave the whole thing up to the intelligence of any readers. I chose Christmas as the metaphor. It sounds twee, but I was happy with the analogy because it worked on a number of levels.

I have now written a sequel and am planning to publish both of the parables together later this year – with 25th December as the deadline. I keep the central metaphor, but the new parable has been influenced by life events. It is called The Parable of the Cold Island – Part 2. It goes into the events after the first parable.

It is unlikely to be a trilogy, even though that is a neat format. Any Part 3 will have to be written by history itself.

Above is the draft cover for this new piece of writing. I’m working on other projects, but this will be the next one to be released. It’s the first new thing I will have published since my book of short stories ‘Parables’, apart from the Halloween short stories (which I’m probably stopping, having written them for ten years).

So, I’m trying to acclimatise myself to drinking out of Christmas-themed coffee mugs. Call it exposure therapy. I simply do not see how any of us can avoid it anyway.

If you are interested, you can read the first Parable of the Cold Island here.

It’s a relevant riddle.



Sunday, 18 April 2021

My testimony from my obscure book 'Irony'

This is part of a chapter from my obscure book 'Irony'. It contains some of my testimony. Stories make the world go 'round - and if you don't mind, even under capitalism, I'm sticking to mine... Questions are welcome.








Everything that anyone will ever learn is subjective and experiential. Even objective, logical education is something which is experienced as a person with a life story. That’s a nice dogmatic assertion for you to disagree with so that you don’t give a fig about me. For now, it’s important that you don’t like me as an intrusive narrator because we have to analyse part of my life story together.


I have often been tempted to stop being a Christian. Christians say, ‘It is a decision you will never regret’, but perhaps what they mean is that you will never be able to say you regret it. The main reason I haven’t ‘moved on’ from my ‘Christian phase’ is because of irony. Because the existence of continuing ironies in my personal life have persuaded me that, in all likelihood, God exists. When I looked at my faith, I realised that the foremost, sustaining reason that I believed in God was because of the ironic (and often unlucky) events which took place every single day.


And so, because stories make the world go ‘round, to a story of hubris and nemesis. Of excessive pride and humiliation. In the summer of 1995, if you had been there (and let’s hope you weren’t), you may have found me in a music store in Stafford, England listening on some 90’s music store headphones to a CD by Alanis Morissette called Jagged Little Pill. No-one watching would have been able to hear the song Ironic begin as I gazed vacantly, glassy eyed, spaced out, into the street. And no-one else would know that this ghostly 23 year old man was an inpatient of the local mental institution who had to be back in hospital by 8pm before the doors were locked to keep the inmates inside and the sane outside.


In literature, any narrative written by someone with a sanity that is under question is usually said to be the story of an unreliable narrator. Hence we have Poe's The Tell-Tale Heart and a host of other stories narrated by characters who are not to be trusted. Please remember the distinction between narrator and author here, because I would like to refer back to this subject in later chapters (when I venture into out and out madness (as usual)).


The irony of being diagnosed with a mental health problem was that a little while before the diagnosis, I had taken great pride in my intellect. I had decided that my brain was the one thing I could rely on. I’d been quite confident about that. Arrogant even. As it turned out, my brain, and even my conscience was faulty. My conscience like a compass spinning in all directions at once. And my brain like a useless soggy, sponge in the head.


I largely understood the concept of irony as a child. Reading the comic Whizzer and Chips and the Bumpkin Billionaires, I understood that it was ‘funny, strange’ for a cartoon family always to be wanting to get rid of their money. That as soon as they succeeded in getting rid of their fortune in the comic strip they always somehow came into more money than they had before, against their wishes. It was a kind of irony in reverse to real life where instead of wanting to make money, the Bumpkin family wanted to lose theirs (and yet they would never, ever succeed, always winning the lottery or finding some invaluable treasure after they threw their sacks of cash into the sea).


Up until the age of ten I never had a word for such things, but I understood the concept well enough. Children understand a lot more than adults think. And so when, aged 11 my English teacher explained the definition of irony, I immediately thought, ‘Well, obviously’. I understood the literal and the literary definition. And I understood the everyday definition of irony in day-to-day life. At least I thought I did. Children can and do understand the concept of irony. Like adults they are subject to the rules or laws of irony. The weather always seems to turn bad as soon as the school holidays begin. And this kind of pattern is played out in many aspects of all our lives, adult or child. On the whole, children understand. But we forget that we once understood and think we learned it. An understanding of irony is within the minds of children from birth. Later I’ll talk a little about whether this is an evolutionary survival mechanism.


My understanding of irony rusted as I grew older, like a sword which is left in the rain and never cared for. When I was a teenager I became proud of my intellect. I was in the top sets at school and although I may not have been a genius, I did feel that I could take any issue, any subject and sort it out in my head. I vividly remember one day lying on my bed as young man and thinking, ‘My mind is the one thing that I can always rely on’. I had that ugly condescension towards those who were less intelligent (and why is imagination rarely measured when it comes to intelligence?)


In the Old Testament there is a story about Nebuchadnezzar, the king of Babylon, becoming incredibly proud of his power and influence. Such stories are re-enacted today in smaller ways. It is said that the world gives birth to people who are less great than their forefathers as time goes on.


Nebuchadnezzar exclaims, at the height of his power, ‘Look how great Babylon is! I built it as my capital city to display my power and might, my glory and majesty.’

Daniel 4:28


A few days later the biblical story has it that he goes mad and ends up homeless, eating grass like an animal, losing his kingdom and power. Whether or not you consider the Bible to be fiction or not, it is still a fact that people’s lives tend to follow the pattern of the old proverb, ‘pride comes before a fall’. It is also considered by some that there is a spiritual law in which the proud are humbled and vice versa.


Before our proverb were the words of Christ who either observed or created the law that the proud would be humbled and the humble would be honoured. Eventually. Most Christians would say that he created it. There is an ironic aspect to this. King Nebuchadnezzar lost his kingdom and his mind. He lived in the wild and this is now known as one of the few depictions of mental illness in the Bible.


Although I was very proud of my intellect I was clearly not wise, as I took a medley of drugs at university and these drugs had a knock-on effect which I believe resulted in later metal health problems. So, during the summer of ‘95, pumped full of prescribed antipsychotic drugs, I came to realise that my mind was something which I could not always rely on at all. And I lifted my eyes to heaven and I was not healed. My mind, my logic and my conscience appeared to be faulty.


I had already been baptised in a church as I had been a Christian for over two years at that point. After the baptism, before the sectioning, I was given a scripture which read, ‘Lean not on your own understanding’. And I took it as a kind of message from God.


So, to be so proud of my intellect and then to realise that I could not always trust my mind was deeply humbling. And ironic. And seeing all that didn’t heal me either. It just acted as vinegar to a wound.


There is a power to irony because the understanding of it can be elitist. This may not ultimately sort the chaff from the wheat (and why would anyone want to?) but the fact is that a lot of good people will not see ironies where others can see them. This turns it into a secret cipher for the intelligent. This is what made Socrates so powerful in debate. He would ask a seemingly innocent question and defeat his opponents with a feigned naivety. He pretended to be humble and simple in order to win debates. Like Columbo does in his, “Just one last thing…” sentence as he begins to leave a murderer’s house. And it is often still the knock-out blow in an internet debate. Use irony and your opponent will not only look simple, but you will have brought your audience along with you (providing you are not a total ar*e). You will win the argument. At least among the ironically enlightened.


Or if no-one else gets the irony, you will have the personal satisfaction of knowing that you won. And no-one will think you have won. And that will be ironic too.


I have never won an Internet debate in my life. I'm of the old-school opinion that you can't win an argument. Of course, I could just be lying to win an argument in saying that, because this book is one long, confusing claim. Remember that I must be an unreliable narrator as I have a certificate in madness (which even the NHS recognises). Also, there is an irony in failing to win in debate and then attempting to put forward this kind of theory. But some arguments cannot be won or lost, even if they are important. For a person to debate that God exists in a persuasive way, they must win the person and not necessarily the argument. And I’m worried I have simply alienated you through clumsy and dogmatic assertions.


Maybe Christ proved that not being able to win an argument is a nonsense idea because he never backed away from robust debate and clearly saw some purpose in debating moot points. But I'm not Christ (that much should be very obvious), I’m a sinner and I don't have to have the same opinions as Christ has. Alienate your audience and no-one wins. All you end up proving is that you are a total schmuck. They say that there is a reason that you can’t prove God. And that is because the outrageous irony is that God doesn't want to be proved yet. Well, there’s further irony for you.


‘That's very convenient’, you may be thinking. But you can't prove or disprove God. I challenge you to even try to do one or the other before the end of the world. God doesn't want to be proved, he wants to be believed in. ‘Very, very convenient.’ And that is why all manner of spiritual forces will either aid or prevent any attempt to prove God. Including this one. But what can be done is to bring new evidence forward. And that is why I am attempting (perhaps badly) to present irony as a serious example of the existence of a higher power.

Thursday, 31 October 2019

Halloween story - The River 2






This short story leads on from last year's Halloween story in which two teenagers narrated a tale at a campsite near to which a river ran. Their names were Joe and Danny. The hero in their story was named Huckleberry. Sadly, all of the characters died in the end. But ol' man river carries on...

The River 

Part 2



“Last year two teenagers drowned in this river.”

It had, of course, made the news. But the campsite hadn’t closed down. Everyone had assumed that the teenagers were drunk. And after a few days and a little grief, the news agenda had moved on, leaving only a few people to invisibly grieve. The dead teenagers may as well have been invisible for all the world cared. All that was left was a gaudy yellow and black sign on the riverbank warning people not to swim there.

The wind that evening was like a messenger, as if a reminder of grief. There was something about the river, especially at dusk, which made people think of stories. Maybe it was the rush of the current, a flow which seemed to speak of a flow of words. Or the bulrushes, long since having split open with their gentle inner-life seeds to a cold reception.

Ezra and Jeremy were work colleagues on a fishing holiday. Both were middle aged.

“I hate this time of the day,” said Ezra.

It was getting harder to see the orange fishing float as the light faded. They had pulled up that morning in a huge campervan owned by Jeremy. Work had been kind to them both. They were prospering and it seemed right to take a break from their latest office success.

“It always reminds me of those stupid ghost stories I would hear as a child. And I hate stories.”

Jeremy was not immune to being spiteful. In fact the two men's entire relationship seemed to be based on a kind of teasing banter devoid of any expression of outward concern.

“You arse. Why don’t I tell you a quick story and then we’ll pack up?”
“No. I don’t want to hear it.”
“So, I’ve just got to think of a name for my hero…” Jeremy looked around in the dying light, from the dark voice of the river to the black silhouette of the trees.
And a whisper in the ear.
“’Huckleberry’. Yes, that’s right. Like Huckleberry Finn. I like that. That’ll do. It just came to me. Anyway...”
“Please shut up. I hate stories.”
“I know you love them really Ezra. Anyway, Huckleberry, our hero, found himself hunted by a werewolf.”
Ezra sighed, “Is that a spoiler? Was he in London? Isn’t there a film about that?”
“Shut up. Huckleberry owned a massive campervan. Not as big as mine, but okay for a civil servant's wage… Sure, he’s a civil servant, that’s right… In fact Huckleberry’s campervan was so large that it caused huge problems in terms of parking until Huckleberry secured some rental land for the van to be parked on. He decided to go on holiday to Cornwall. That’s where certain kinds of Londoner will always holiday. He had booked a spot on a caravan site in Cornwall near the sea. There were woods nearby, huge pine trees and a forest. And a monkey-puzzle tree, because they say that the devil sits in them…”

“Are there many pines in Cornwall, I thought that was just Devon?”

“Shut up. Huckleberry found himself surrounded by pine trees on a camp site in Cornwall and he enjoyed his holiday until the last day. He had got into bed in the massive campervan and he heard some strange noise at the window. All of the curtains were drawn and there seemed to be a tapping noise or a scratching at one of the windows. Annoyed by the sound, Huckleberry got out of bed and went to the window, pulling open the curtains. Guess what he saw…”

“Your pretension personified?”

“Nothing. There was nothing at the window. Except for this clawing in his heart and soul. It was like hypnosis, it was like a fever, it was like the smell from some strange flower or like the song from a siren…. Do you like that bit Ezra? That was really clever… Suddenly he felt an overpowering inclination to leave the campervan and walk into the woods. So he closed the door behind him, absent-mindedly locking it. Perhaps to prevent any werewolf from getting into his bed and pretending to be his granny…”

Jeremy stopped there because he remembered that Ezra had just lost his grandmother who had lived to a respectable 103. It was a little like verbally falling into a river and getting a foot stuck in the muddy silt on the river bed and not pulling the foot loose and climbing out. The river sucked him deeper and he should have struggled but he didn’t struggle and didn’t climb out for a moment or two.

“Anyway, storyteller-hater, it was to stop any intruder. And Huckleberry turned towards the woods and there was a deep darkness. The cover from the pines seemed to make the woods so dark. Pine needles carpeted the floor. A little prickly, a little threadbare, but a carpet of a kind. And Huckleberry was drawn into these woods. He had walked for a hundred or so metres when he turned back and could only just see a light or two from the caravan site. And he turned back up ahead and he saw something moving in the woods and the calling, the pull of whatever it was still clawed at his soul and he felt a hunger deep within him. It was a madness and yet it was like a beautiful aroma which kept drawing him on…. Oh, that’s a clever bit too, I like that…
Anyway, he pushed through the harsh, sharp pine branches and continued into the woods. All around him there were noises, a strange snuffling noise. He though he saw a boar and he remembered tales he had once heard back in London of how the devil had once turned into a black pig and the people of the city had seen the black pig and that those who had seen it had soon died. But he continued on and he saw something ahead. He realized that it was the full moon and that he could see its light because there was a clearing up ahead. And he stepped out of the woods into the strange circular clearing which was surrounded on every side by thick woods. And up in the sky was the full moon which seemed to laugh at him. Did you like that bit too Ezra? And look at the moon tonight…” Jeremy pointed into the darkening sky.

“There’s no moon, it’s hidden behind the clouds and my moon phase app says that it is fourteen percent waxing, so it’s not even full. You're deeply depressing me.”

But Jeremy was getting engrossed in his story and hardly noticed the interruption.
“And Huckleberry wondered why it should laugh and why he should imagine that it laughed. And there in the clearing were other dark forms. There was a stone circle. In ages past, the ancestors had built a stone circle in the middle of these woods, woods very much like those surrounding us now, for a reason long forgotten. And Huckleberry wanted so much to stand in the middle of the circle and yet he didn’t know why. But he obeyed this strange compulsion, a compulsion which overrode even his most basic instinct for survival (and for Huckleberry, that was no mean feat). So, he stood there, in the night, under the laughing moon, in the middle of the dark woods and he suddenly came to his senses. It was as if a spell had broken and suddenly its hypnotic effect had no power. But there were now things moving on the periphery of the woods. Strange shapes. Inhuman shapes. Forms which were not quite human…”

“Did you clone yourself again? Or was it Cthulhu?”

“…and then he realized what the forms were because they came out from the woods and approached the stones. And he could see them clearly now in the light of the laughing moon. They were werewolves. And their faces were long, like the faces of wolves and their torsos were covered in fur and the claws, the claws, can you imagine the claws?”

At this, in the latter dusk, Jeremy pressed the flashlight function on his phone, shone it against a tree and set his hand far away from it but brought it down closer to the torch light so that the shadow looked like it was a huge claw coming towards Ezra. The shadow of a claw at least. The kind of trick which could be played on a three year old.

Ezra was unimpressed.
“I’m only listening to this crap because I have to work with you.”

“The claws Ezra, the claws…” he switched off the torch. “The claws were huge, like serrated knives, like scimitars. Longer than any claws he had thought werewolves (if he had believed in such things in sophisticated London) could ever have had. And they approached. Now Huckleberry knew that there was only one thing he could do. Well, there were a number of options, he could surrender his life to those werewolves and those claws or else he could run. But someone like our hero Huckleberry knows how to keep his head in a crisis situation. So what he did was the action of a man who uses his brain. He used the adrenaline in his body to climb one of the tall stones and then he crouched at the top of the stone he had climbed…”

“Wait a minute, how did he climb the stone again?”

“He had good quality trainers and the stone had a rough surface allowing him to climb.”

“Then why didn’t the werewolves climb too?”

“Their claws Ezra, their claws. The instruments which made them such successful and merciless killers also prevented them from climbing. So, they circled the stone on which Huckleberry crouched. From on top of the stone Huckleberry could see that there were ten werewolves, and there were ten stones and there was some kind of sacrificial stone in the centre, but he was on top of one of the outer stones. And beneath him the werewolves howled in hunger and frustration and he could see their hunger and he could see in their eyes their hatred of what they themselves were but their powerlessness to change that.”

“You stole that line from that writer Angela Carter. That’s plagiarism.”

“How would you know? You don't like stories. They simply did what they did naturally, but part of them seemed to hate that, like the community of the damned might. And Huckleberry’s legs hurt from his crouching but he was afraid to let them hang down the stone so that the werewolves might tear at his feet with those claws, so instead he had to sit cross-legged on the stone like a gnome. And that was all he could do. He had nothing to throw at them. He would have to wait until either help came or else morning came. But he took to screaming in the hope that someone from the campsite would hear him. The people on the campsite did hear the screams and the howls but they were too afraid to explore the woods.”

“I don’t think Huckleberry would have gone into the woods in the first place. Did you steal that idea too?”

“He was under a kind of enchantment from the werewolves, Ezra, which they use to take their prey. So he sat on top of the stone and waiting for morning. Soon his throat was ragged and sore from screaming and no-one came to save him. But the morning was coming and he felt in his heart and in his knowledge of folklore that the werewolves would retreat back to the woods to their lairs or else revert to human form. So he waited. He was clever, so he simply waited, as, if he was patient and kept his calm, he knew he could survive this as he had survived everything else life had thrown at him… that’s character building Ezra, did you like that?”

“You really are a pretentious anus.”

“It took such a long time and the werewolves prowled around the stones continually. But Huckleberry was patient and he simply waited and concentrated on breathing techniques to keep himself calm and keep himself from the strange enchantment which still clawed at his soul and made him wild and willing to sacrifice himself so that it would all be over. In for seven, out for eleven. In for seven, out for eleven. You should remember that, it's useful. Breath with me Ezra…”




“No.”

“He resisted this delusion, this imp of the perverse (look that phrase up online Ezra), and he resisted the werewolves and after a long, long time the dawn arrived. And it was cold now and he shivered. One werewolf tried one last time to reach him and failed. So the werewolves slunk back into the woods.

Soon Huckleberry was alone in the clearing on top of the stone and the sun rose in the aching sky. His legs had locked and were painful. And when he jumped to the ground they gave way from being in the same position, because the night had been a physical torture as well as a psychological and spiritual one. But it was day now and he lay on the ground breathing gasps of joy at being saved and being alive. He was about to get to his feet and make his way back to civilisation when he saw something once again on the edge of the woods. It was the werewolves. They came boldly. No one had told them that they had to return to their lairs and they were clever. So they raced towards their food, our hero Huckleberry and tore into him with their claws. Huckleberry’s guts spilled onto the grass and he was still alive to see himself split in half by one of the claws on the central stone. He died screaming. Poor chap. Such is the fate of civil servants.”

“Is that it?”

“Yep.”

“He died?”

“Yep.”

“This is why I hate stories. And stupid abrupt endings which resolve nothing. It's dark, I'm going back.”

"Philistine."

And the river kept his secret that year.


Friday, 16 February 2018

Parables



My latest book has just been published and is available on Amazon from this link.


'Parables' is a collection of 14 eerie and unusual short stories written over a number of years. The genre of these stories ranges from modern ghost story and magic realism through to updated parable. These stories are full of pathos, memorable characters and a deeper meaning. They will linger with the reader long after they have been read. Above all, each story is designed to be a portal into a new way of looking at life.


The paperback is £5.99 and the ebook version is £2.99.

Sunday, 4 February 2018

New book trailer

This is the trailer for my new book, a short story collection called Parables. It will be available from February 10th.



Sunday, 29 January 2017

Book launch - Irony by Nick White

Book cover - Irony


“We’re living in strange times.” It was an offhand remark to the electrician as he came to assess a broken cooker. We had been talking about politics. It seemed like a safe, anodyne remark, unlikely to cause offense or to alienate. And maybe it was ironic.

But it’s true – we are living in strange times. Perhaps the times have always been strange, but they are no less strange today than they were before. This world of alternative facts and fake news has driven many of us to the edge of our resources. All kinds of things that we used to take for granted now have to be fought for. It’s partly the fault of the citizen journalists but it’s also true that alternative facts and fake news are not new.

We can say we are post-truth and post-irony and that we are far too sophisticated to accept old dogmas, but there is still that longing for some kind of meaning to it all, some kind of certainty. For some kind of pragmatic way of survival in this strange world. And that is partly why I have written my new book, released today.

It is a non-fiction book which takes an original look at irony in our modern lives. It is a book which extends the definition of irony in line with our modern understanding of the term. And it is written for people who blame God when things go wrong. It’s for the agnostics, for the people who wonder why the believers and atheists are so loud. I make some wild claims in this book. I say that irony needs there to be a story. That it needs there to be an audience. That it implies an ironist in the same way that a story implies a storyteller. But what would the nature of such an ironist be, given the nature of the ironies which we are subject to?

Would it be ironic for there to appear to be patterns in both our lives and in the story of history or in our meta-narratives, stories like the Gospels, Frankenstein or 1984? Or are such things evolutionary survival mechanisms, like the formulation of language or the willingness to arrange our lives into some kind of meaningful story? What is the point of the sword which is irony? Why is it there?

I invite you to read my book as it is written for thinking people like you. People who seek meaning.

It’s available from Amazon here. 

Think happy thoughts.

Thursday, 22 May 2014

The Owl Flies at Night - free ebook


My short story experiment 'The Owl Flies at Night' is free tonight and tomorrow for anyone who has a Kindle or the free Kindle for PC app. I wanted to offer it free on Amazon but can't so I've put it at the lowest possible price. The Amazon system allows me to give five days free promotion every three months so please take a look as it is available now.

The Owl Flies at Night



Thursday, 13 March 2014

The Owl Flies At Night



An update for my long-suffering blog readers:

The winter hasn't been entirely spent in hibernation. The novel (which has a working title of 'Destiny and Dynasty') is progressing and should be published (one way or another) later in the year.

In the meantime I've written and published a short story called 'The Owl Flies At Night' as an ebook.

It's a short story which I've sat on for quite a few years. Originally it was going to be part of my novel, but it didn't fit and I thought it worked better as a standalone story. I've used a few writing tricks and experiments, there is an unreliable narrator and I've also experimented with frame stories. In the end it has turned into a story within a story within a story (and that is on-purpose). I had a lot of fun with this one and it was enjoyable to write but I suppose the test will be to find out what people think of it.

Here are the details and the blurb:

'Owl Flies at Night is a satirical short story about Dr Eric Swell and his adventures on the astral plane. As Dr Swell once said, 'It is your destiny to read this.' 

Dr Swell maintains that having an out of body experience is just like riding a magic carpet and that negative astral experiences don't exist. You can trust him can't you? Surely we can all trust him.

Just look over your shoulder now and sense your spirit guide nodding in approval as you read these very words. 

Learn the identity of Narcissus. Free yourself from dogma. Find a story within a story. Do not doubt Dr Swell. He is entirely reliable and his words are like a light at the end of all our tunnels. 

This is a sample of Dr Swell's best work, his magnum opus. It is a work which will herald a paradigm shift in the world's collective consciousness. 

We all have a destiny.'

I wanted to publish the story for free as an Amazon ebook, but the platform doesn't allow that so I have priced it at the lowest price. So I'll try to use as many free promotions as Amazon allow.

Please do check it out if you can. Here is the Amazon link.


Friday, 18 January 2013

The Hollow Statue and Stranded in Eternity

I wanted to write a blog entry about how I came up with the ideas for my latest published short stories.

The Hollow Statue was written as a first draft a long time ago.

I wondered at that time what a society would look like in which everyone had that same blind faith in the authorities. Then I combined this with some apocalyptic themes.

What emerged was not particularly beautiful, but it was honest about my feelings at the time. If I wrote it again I would try to balance the darkness with more light.

The other story, Stranded in Eternity was written over a long period and after many drafts. It began at a writers workshop where everyone was given a first line to use to write a story. My first line was 'He revived with a smile on his face'.

A little while later I went to church and heard a sermon about how indescribable heaven will be. That it would be beyond imagination. So I thought I would try to imagine a version of heaven, beyond the idea of fluffy clouds. I also introduced a few other themes which interested me. And most importantly I selected a Christian as the hero - I did this on purpose because there are so few positive portrayals of Christians.

There was a lot more to the writing of both stories, but this was how they came to be written in the first place. They are written only for readers to enjoy and have no hidden message.

Both stories are available in the science fiction anthology Otherwhere and Elsewhen.

Thursday, 13 December 2012

Otherwhere and Elsewhen

Otherwhere and Elsewhen
Otherwhere and Elsewhen cover

Two of my new short stories have been published by Bridge House. The first is called The Hollow Statue. It is set in a dark future where the Government keeps people firmly under their control. It is a Government who can read minds – free thought is illegal and swiftly punished. The protagonist of the story is a teacher who asks one too many questions. The hollow statue of the title is a technologically advanced statue which has been set up outside an old town hall. Everybody has to assemble before these statues (one in each town) and listen to propaganda. The hero is a rebel, but can he really change anything in the face of such power?
The second story is titled Stranded in Eternity. It began life over ten years ago at a festival when I attended a creative writing workshop. Each of us were given a first line to use as the introduction of a story. Someone gave me this line: “He revived with a smile on his face.” So from there, after many edits the story grew and eventually became a tale about a man who crashes his car on the way home from church and wakes up in heaven. He has to adjust to his new surroundings and encounters a number of surprises. It is my attempt at imagining what heaven could look like. The story contains elements of beauty which I would like to characterize my future writing. It also explores some of the bigger questions in life and isn’t a narrative with a moral message. It is simply a story.
Otherwhere and Elsewhen is available from Amazon through the following link:
The book costs £3.85p as an eBook.
There are 11 other sci-fi short stories in this anthology and I would feel privileged if you decided to read it.

Sunday, 31 July 2011

Compliance is Futile



We live in an instant world and suddenly the world of publishing seems to be relatively instant too. I made my first venture into the world of self-publishing yesterday. Determined to get my first book published I opted for Smashwords as a publishing platform and I now have an ebook.

The whole process took me about a day (the poetry collection itself took place over years). By midnight I had clicked the 'publish' button. Strangely my upload was in a queue of about 400 other works (it was day-time in America where Smashwords are based).

I wrote the blurb and picked a cover image (a sculpture of Joan of Arc at the Louvre in Paris 'listening to her voices'). I played around with the picture a little and uploaded the finished result. Then I got my free ISBN number.

The whole process was free and that was what I liked about it. Sometimes it seems as if the entire world of writing and publishing is there to make money from writers. There are so many scams out there for writers that it is necessary to be very careful.

But now I have an ebook of poetry published (finally) and I am ridiculously pleased with the whole thing. The finished product is available as an ebook in different formats for devices ranging from the Kindle to the PC. It is poetry rich in metaphor and simile and it is written for everyone.

If you want to see a sample of the book or even buy it (for $0.99), then you can see my Smashwords page at:

http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/73333.

Tuesday, 7 September 2010

The Princess Who Wanted Snow


If you're looking for a present to give to a child (aged 6+) this Christmas then this collection of stories would make a wonderful stocking filler at £6.99.

My first short story has been published in the book 'An Advent Calendar of Stories' by Bridge House Publishing. The story is called 'The Princess Who Wanted Snow' and it's about a fiesty princess who has been trapped in a castle by a selfish prince. It's a magical story from the point of view of one of the castle cats (named 'Aly'). The princess tells the prince that the only way she will marry him is if he makes it snow. The problem is that it never snows.

It was inspired by a tiny cat I saw when I visited an old castle whilst on holiday in Portugal and the first draft was written on that holiday.

There's a story in this book for every day of Advent, stories about angels, animals and dragons.

You can order the book and find out more at:

http://www.bridgehousepublishing.co.uk/

The hero of the story: 'Aly'

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