The Notebook and the Devil
Please picture a room in a mansion located behind a secure, ornate
gate. It is the kind of place where the
rich go to let their lives marinate, knowing that they have many fine years
ahead of them to eat, drink and create a fortress of their homes. Where the recording angels (if there are such things) have no jurisdiction to document the words that are spoken.
There are some who say that houses are like bodies and their occupants are like souls. If that is the case, then the body, at least, is thriving here.
And the conscience of the guest burns, like a blush, for the deeds he is about to do.
There are some who say that houses are like bodies and their occupants are like souls. If that is the case, then the body, at least, is thriving here.
And the conscience of the guest burns, like a blush, for the deeds he is about to do.
In this particular property picture a dining room with a roaring
fire in an inglenook fireplace. It is dusk and the fire is like a third
occupant within the room. If the flames could speak they would say, ‘We are here to live, dance and
die, that is our purpose’. But
flames cannot speak and houses are not bodies.
There is a long marble-topped table covered by a white tablecloth.
One wall is a window which is now obscured by the eyelid of a closed velvet
curtain. The dominant colours within the room are white and red, like the
colours of a coral snake. Colours which say ‘Danger’.
Colours which say ‘Keep away’.
The only noise in the room comes from the crackle of the fire. Strangely, the
room smells fusty, like some forgotten church.
Picture the host, the owner of the mansion, his hair as white as
this room’s walls, but for a slight yellowy tinge. His fingers are stained with
tobacco. He sits at one end of the table and seems relaxed.
A young guest sits at the far end of the table. The room itself
seems to sing to them, a sweet lullaby which comforts them as much as the
bottle of expensive cognac they are sharing.
The host lights up a cigar and leans back into his chair.
“It so happened,” says the host, “That your father began to take
an interest in the occult…”
The young guest seems agitated, afraid even, like a man waiting in
line for judgment day. “Let me stop you right there Sir, my father was not a
man who believed in anything supernatural.”
“Ah, I beg to differ. Your father held a secret fascination for
all things occult. Your father’s true fascination was power and the occult was
said to be a means to an end.”
The host pauses to blow out a long stream of smoke. “As a young
man it seemed to your father that life trundled on as it always did. There was
no likelihood of any great change in the future. It seemed to him that this
world and this life were all that existed and that a person should adapt and change
and enjoy the life he had. But it also seemed to him that there was a way of
doing so much better.”
The young guest shakes his head and looks into the dancing flames,
so deeply red – he wonders how flames could ever be so red.
The host sighs and continues, “Your father was a great reader and
he liked to read his esoteric literature. If you don’t believe me, find access
to his kindle reading list, if examined by anyone now it would raise many
eyebrows in the department. As a young man your father was interested in occult
knowledge, Aleister Crowley, Theosophy, channelling, psychic predictions - all
kinds of things like this. And his interest, over the years, grew darker and
darker. He was consistently drawn to the more obscure texts and the stranger
ideas when it came to esoteric writing. He found his way through esoteric apocrypha the likes of which would make an ordinary man or woman weep. The
strangest stories. The strangest writings. This is what your father grew to
love and was the other hobby alongside his politics. Because both were a hobby
and not work. Your father, from his reading grew to be convinced that he could
attain power through making a Faustian pact with the devil.”
The rich young guest splutters mid-sip at this.
“That’s ridiculous,” he says. “That is not my father.”
“We all fall into cliché in the end, the only irony is that so
many of us avoid it in our words and live it in our lives. Now it so happened
that your father also knew that the devil gets a somewhat strange press. The
devil, obviously controls the press, but we will leave that for another talk.
Your father knew a lot about the devil. Not only did he know all about the
traditional scriptural references to the devil, the Book of Job and the
passages of Isaiah said to refer to this character, but he also knew the
Islamic scriptures and texts concerning the devil. The two versions differed
slightly, one devil had a withered arm and a blind eye, the other had vast
power but was trumped by God in the same way that a game of top trumps would
have one card which beat another card. So your father knew, from this
traditional literature that the devil was not to be trusted when it came to
making deals. Some have it that the devil is a liar too and that all of his temptations
and promises amount to nothing. Your father also researched the devil in
folklore and here he found a different devil to the devil of the scriptures –
he found a devil who could be outwitted, who could be used to progress in life.
He found a devil who could be used to get what he wanted and tricked into not
receiving his soul at the end of the whole process. It was this devil in which
your father began to believe… began to worship…”
“Hold on, I’m sorry, I have to stop you right there, my father
simply wouldn’t believe in the devil. He was his own man.”
“He worked in Government, of course he believed in the devil… and
no man is their own, however they may feel. Your father’s devil differed from
the devil in the Bible in that he was a far less powerful principality. The
devil of folklore which he came to believe in was merely a misunderstood
character who could grant wishes. Kind of like a genie. Your father also
researched the devil of urban myth and pop culture. It seemed to him that this
devil, the one featured in horror films and horror stories was, like the
scriptural devil, a caricature of the being he believed in. Once again this
devil held huge power, the kind of power which was almost equal to that of God.
It seemed to him that this urban myth devil was as fake as the devil of the
bible. As I say, your father believed in a folklore devil…. at least at first.”
The guest drinks from his glass, at a loss for words. The
host gives a wry smile. “It
seemed to your father that the devil did have a kind of army of fallen angels
at his disposal though. He felt sure that although the devil himself knew
nothing of your father that there was a kind of hierarchy in the kingdom of
darkness. There were more powerful demons who understood irony and satire,
there were less powerful demons who only understood how to provoke violence and
who lived in strange dark places like motorway underpasses. These demons, he
came to understand had simple agendas. Your father’s reading caused him to
understand that both the devil and his army had the agenda of getting humans to
either hurt each other or hurt themselves. They provoked fights and incited all
kinds of prejudice and violence. They actively caused people to do evil things.
But not only did they cause suffering, they also tempted. And your father,
through occult reading understood that the language used by the devil was
indeed the language of the lie, but that behind all this, behind all the angel
in disguise beauty of evil there was also an element of truth. As a candidate
for election he understood that the best lies had an element of truth. It
wasn’t the devil who had taught him this, it was the MPs. So he discovered that
the devils did hold treasures and power of a kind and that they were able to grant
wishes. So he decided that he wished for power so that he could progress in his
career and gain election. He also wished for money. So, obviously your father
needed some kind of summoning power. The trouble is that for anyone who wants
to do a deal with the devil they find themselves somewhat stuck at some point –
usually at the point of asking for the thing that they want. Some say that the
devil cannot read thoughts but that he can have a good guess at what humans are
thinking as he has been muddling around them for a few thousand years. So your
father, because he believed in a folklore devil, decided that he would summon
up Lucifer himself. To cut a long, infernal, story short, your father read a
lot of the strangest, most esoteric, most occult, most obscure literature he
could find and he compiled his findings into this notebook.”
Suddenly the host holds, as if by some conjuring trick, an old red
notebook in his hand. On the front of the notebook, written in faded gold are
the words ‘Nobiscum Deus’. The host places it on the table.
“His findings, written in this notebook would enable him to summon
the devil to do his bidding in exchange for something he had. So he performed
the necessary rituals in his home, he drew the usual pentagrams and protected
himself from the evil eye of the devil through eye-shaped charms. He protected
himself with all kinds of black magic and he went through the summoning
procedure. I will not go into the ingredients of such a ritual as I do not want
to give you any ideas and some of the ingredients were gory. Blood, skin,
bones, various liquids, an innocent, you know the kind of thing. It’s all in
the notebook. So the ritualistic words were said and then your father waited,
hoping for an appearance from the devil.
But nothing happened.
No devil appeared and, depressed, your father went to bed. This
was all 50 years ago, before his success began, apart from the scandal and the
events that followed. And he fell asleep and the devil appeared to your father
in a dream. Dreams are supposed to be the royal road to the unconscious and
generations past believed that they often came from outside of ourselves too.
That this unconscious could be by-passed by angel or demon or God or devil and
that messages could be passed which by-passed the machinations of this society
in which we live. And although a dream is like life insomuch as a person can
take little from it when he or she awakes, the dream could involve agreements
and relationships in the same way that a life can contain relationships and
agreements even if nothing else can be taken beyond death. So it was with your
father. When the devil approached your father in the dream he knew immediately
that it was the devil. He appeared to him as the folklore devil he was
expecting, cloven hooves, a man of the world, eyes which danced with a strange
red fire within them. It is said that the devil is mad because he cannot hope
to overcome God but still believes that he can do so. That he is like some kind
of feral animal in his hunger to survive. That this is the madness shared by
all devils, so they can hope to overcome the very God who created them. A
delusion they are subject to like the delusions they create. And this is true
enough because when your father looked into the eyes of the devil he knew he
was looking into the eyes of a psychopath. He wrote this of the discourse…”
At this point the host picks up the notebook and begins to read.
‘Greetings’ said the devil to me, whistling to himself in the
dream.
‘Hello Sir’ I replied full of a deferential respect I would not
give to any man.
‘And what can I do for you today? I believe you called me?’
I was irritated that the devil was English but had no more than
thought this thought when he spoke again, ‘I appear in whatever necessary form
I need to appear. I assure you that I spend a lot of time in England.’
‘I wondered if you would do me a favour kind Sir and give me
power and money?’
‘Quid pro quo good fellow, quid pro quo, what will you do for me
in return?’
‘What do you want?’
‘What do I want? What do I want? I have never told a mortal what I
want. When someone knows what you want they have power over you. Do you expect
me to break the habit of a lifetime? Ask instead, what do I need?’
‘What do you need?’
‘I am so sorry to fall into fiction and stereotype like this,
goodness knows they demonise me enough already but I’m afraid I will require
your eternal soul.’
‘Is this so you can torture me forever in hell’?
‘Not at all, if we go to hell we will both be in unendurable
torture (oh how that makes me so angry), what can I possibly do with your soul
in hell? I am afraid I will require your soul in this lifetime, after that you
can have it back. There are certain things which I would like you to accomplish
on this earth. And you must not listen to all those who say that my only agenda
is to destroy and for you to harm others and yourself. And you must not listen
to those who say I can only speak the lie and that the lie is the only language
that I know. Because we all know that every lie contains a kernel of truth in
it or else it would not be a successful lie. And if I said that I know a lot
about lies would I be telling the truth anyway? There are all kinds of
narratives there really are dear friend. Dear, dear, precious man, there is so
much that I could tell you and yet I really don’t think that your beautiful
mind could comprehend all that I know. ’
It was most disturbing.
‘And if I let you have my soul in my lifetime you will give me
power and money?’
‘Yes. Or no. Maybe.’
‘How can I be sure you won’t lie to me?’
‘If I build you a bridge then I require something in return. It
may not be so much about lying as whose story you believe. Don’t believe the
rumours about me,’ replied the devil.
The host places the notebook back on the table.
“Now anyone with any kind of sense would realize that the devil’s
word is probably not going to be something which has a very great commitment to
it. Anyone who is anyone realizes that the devil is going to lie whatever he
says and that in many ways your father was not going to come out of this whole
survival situation which we call life very well. However, there was no
accounting for your father’s folly when it came to be blinded by riches and
power. He wanted those things so badly that he was prepared to believe that he
would receive them because the devil had given his word. Besides which, he had
done his reading and realized that the devil could probably be tricked in some
way by sending a dog over a metaphorical bridge or something like that at some
point. So your father agreed and in the moment of his agreeing in thought he
woke up in bed to find blood on the sheets. And that was how the deal was made.
It’s all in the notebook.
One. He could escape the devil’s clutches by submitting to a
higher power. The trouble with praying to God, which he found was the required
action, was that he would probably be called to give up his power and position,
something which was a bit of a deal-breaker for your father. So he ruled that
one out.
But there was one other option. Through careful reading of the
Book of Job and further reading of folklore stories he discovered one element
which was common in defeating the devil. Endurance.
Sure there were stories of people outwitting the devil by giving
some animal in exchange for their own soul, sure there were stories of the
devil being outwitted by a clever scheme, but your father, through careful
study of Job realized that Job only outwitted the devil through endurance. Job
resisted the devil and this was the way in which he escaped. So your father
determined to do the same.
When the devil appeared to him again once more in a dream he
demanded that your father begin to serve him as a slave. He demanded that your
father begin to harm other people, to bring about those laws which would cause
the most suffering. Because this is what the devil does.
So your father summoned up all his resistance and said:
‘No. I’m not going to do it.’
‘What did you say?’ asked the tyrant the devil.
‘I said no. I utterly resist you like Job did.’
‘Ahhh. The one time I was defeated by a mortal, or am I lying? But
you will understand what the allegorical Job had to go through a lot before he
tricked me?’
And so it was that when your father woke up he was covered in
sores. The sores were so painful and suddenly there was a phone call from the
Prime Minister to say that the great scandal you know about had occurred and
that he must fall on his sword and resign. And suddenly family and friends
began to die. And suddenly his house burned down, as you know, and his
portfolio of risky shares became almost worthless. Even his bank claimed he had
never had an account with them in the first place. His reputation was lost. And
suddenly your father had nothing apart from his diseases. He was like Job
except he was homeless.
And the devil appeared to him during his torture in another dream
when your father was sleeping homeless on the streets of London.
‘Changed your mind yet?’
‘Yes sir’ said your father.
And that was how your father got better. That was how he regained
his wealth and power and how he got a new home. He regained his riches, his
portfolio of shares and a whole new family. He was more blessed than he had
been before his downfall. He went back to serving the devil and he was a good
servant and nothing else went wrong for him in his life, before he died the
natural death last week, full of years and the happiness of a life lived in the
service of Government.”
The young guest seems to be thinking about all this. “Do you
believe in the devil?” he asks finally.
“Doesn’t life experience say it is intellectually insulting to do
otherwise?” replies the host.
“But that is deeply disturbing,”
“There are more angels than demons.”
“You’re not the devil are you?”
“Don’t be ridiculous, you know I’m simply an old friend of your
late father. The devil is not flesh and blood. I am merely telling you the true
story of your father’s success, a fine man, a great man. I hear that they will
be building a statue of him. But tell me, how long is it until the by-election
vote again?”
The guest sighs as if remembering his anguish. “Two days, but I’m
unlikely to win. The other candidate can’t seem to put a foot wrong. I don’t
know what to do to win it.”
Then the host sips the last of his glass of cognac, stands and
leaves the room. The young guest is alone. There is only the sound of the
dancing fire which seems to say ‘Take
up and read, take up and read’, the feverish lullaby of a hall and a marble
table with an old red notebook on it emblazoned with the words ‘Nobiscum Deus’.
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